All I have left

Lay a note
It read:
Baby your love
it just ain't good enough
I found sunlight six hours away
You wanted me down 'til I drifted abound
Somewhere far from your shade.




waiting for summer....my friends are all I need.

hopefully this cd comes out alright -_-

yesterday was fun. hungout with justin and John scheer all day.... put scheers deck in his car and did a few errands.... mike sepulvida even came and hungout for a bit....craziness.... after that, I went home ate and then went to Walgreens to play hockey, which was good until i got hit in the face with a stick, I have a cut and it's swollen, but no biggy.... after I went home for about two seconds and then went to Kristens for a bit, we started to watch el mariachi and she fell asleep which I didn't mind, I tried to leave without waking her up, but I'm a fatty and The bed moved when I sat up. lol... after that I came home and fell asleep in my empty shell of a room. 

things were akward at first, but it was normal after.... I just hope I can prove how much she means to me.

I've dcided to just write in this instead of only putting my poems and songs up........

It's been almost a week since my 20th birthday and it has been the worst week I've had in a long time.... some of it I don't want to talk about......... so I'll just start with today.....

Well yesterday.....

So I was unhappy from some things that had taken place earlier..... so I decided to go to nicks, there's always people there and it's always fun, well i get about two blocks from my house and realize I had a flat tire.... my dad came and me and him put the donut on the car and he took it home while I went to nicks....Fast forward to today... I not only had a shit day at work, where i couldn't stop thinking about what had happened a few days before but I had to replace two tires on my car... UNREAL.... $70 later.... I'm still in debt... fuck.....

Whatever

Touch sets it off
Finger tips on skin, blood races,
She loses Oxygen
Breathing Gets heavy lips get bit
This shrine to beauty is now set ablaze
Lines are crossed, there's no turning back
They realize as they stare, just what's going on
and no ones prepared

What happens next will change everything
nothing in their worlds will look the same to both of them
She thinks he'll leave, he thinks she'll cling
But both boy and girl want the same thing
Moment suspended in time, Free from the rules of reality

She thinks "sorry mom, Sorry god, I have been tempted and I am guilty"
He thinks "sorry dude, I know your my friend, but after all..... I liked her first"

I think I may be sick
These walls just wont stop talking
and I've had enough dry conversation for the night
I think I'll step out
But everytime I step I have a nagging fear
that what I step into is larger than I think.







This room's too hollow for shallow conversation 
and everyone can hear you talking about yourself
so keep it down,This party will keep going if you leave
not everyone hangs on the words that come out your mouth





Is it fair to presume, that too much of you 
could make any man feel ill and collapse?